What do You Say

I was reading Ashley's post and made think about what do you tell people when they ask if you have any kids or for me lately, when are you due, or how is the baby. I know that I have learned through this experience that you should never ask anyone any of these questions unless you are prepared for the real answer.

I have had multiple people ask me when is the baby due, and I have to explain that I am not pregnant anymore and that my baby passed away after 22 days of life. There is always this very awkward silence and you can tell that they want to run, or they tell me that they are sorry, but I am still young and can always have another child. It is obvious that these people have never lost anyone important to them. It is not like I can just go and replace an important someone who has passed away. I do not understand why that seems like an appropriate response.... You would never tell someone who has lost a parent or spouse to go and get another one. I can never have another Addison; she was a very special person and her life can never be repeated, and the place in my heart for her can never be be filled by another child.

I hope that one day when God thinks that Jason and I are ready that he does bless us with another child but it would not be to replace our love for Addison but instead to supplement it. I know that when this happens, I will be a better parent because if it. I will never take any relationship for granted because all you know for sure in this life is that you have today; therefore you should live each day and nurture each relationship as if tomorrow may never come!